This past weekend I hung out with some friends out in the country and ended up getting really wasted. Anyway, ever since about last November I’ve been talking to this guy and he’s been asking for me to suck him or let him finger me or have sex and I did suck him once.. Out in the woods behind our school.. Yeah -.- but I’ve always thought he was cute ya know so I was like cool, he’s Ina relationship and I don’t mind cause well, I don’t wanna get hurt or anything but he’s damn sexy so why not? Anyway we met up at like 1 am at some elementary school and I was with my friend cause I was drunk and didn’t wanna go alone and we get there and I’m so drunk I forgot why I even walked there but long story shorter I remember and him and I walked away leavin my friend behind so we could do whatever. We found a spot behind this tree and he pulled down his shorts and I started suckin him and whatever but I was so drunk I kept forgetting who he was and I would stop and be like “wait what are we doing, who are you?” and then soon enough he asked me if I wanted to fuck and not think right or anything I said sure so we did it twice.. Then we walk(or stumble in my case) back to where I left my friend and I start freaking out cause I didn’t remember what happened and this guys huge so my vagina hurt.. So I flipped out on him. And well, here’s where I fucked up. First, he didn’t wear a condom and I dont know if he came or not.. Whoops. Second, I don’t know if he has any type of aids.. Double oh no. Third, he told me him and his girlfriend broke up but it turns out they didn’t. I don’t really care either way but now I feel bad cause well, that night he got a phone call and the person he was talking was like “so your with Abby? Does she look any different?” and today at school I heard his girlfriend “ex” talking about how they broke up cause he was talking to some Abby chick but she kept saying “if that’s even her real name” so I think she doesn’t think “Abby’s” even real but he was with me when his friend thought he was with Abby so I think I’m Abby? And if I am I’m a big reason they broke up.. Which makes me feel like shit. So here I am, I might have some type of aids, I might be pregnant, I might be the reason for a couple of two years break up, he probably won’t ever forgive me for freaking out on him, and my vagina hurts. -.- yep, I fucked up.. Uhg! Please don’t hate me y’all :( I really do feel bad about it all..

Hey y’all, I’ve been at the same weight for about 3 months now.. Uhg!! But I’m ready to shred it off! I’m starting the drop 10 challenge today! Head over to my progress blog to see my starting weight and body pics and every Friday till the 5 weeks are up I’ll be posting a new pic with my new weight! I’m so ready to break through this plateau! I’ll update everyday on here (my main blog!) about how the workout was and so forth :) love y’all!